WOW !!! After reading the blogs from my endearing and absolutely fantastic grandchildren, Lys and Mellie, I feel so inadequate to even write. How amazing they are . Their writings move to very core of my soul. They have such feelings with in them that it is hard to even fathom where they even come from. I am sure that they actually come from the Lord. How inspiring they are.

They definitely give me the feeling that I want to do more. I wish I had more time in my life to to do more. It makes me want to explore and give. I have always had the deep feeling of wanting to give. Not sure what to give myself , my time, my money ( which is not much), or maybe I should just give more of all of me. How I wish I had had been closer to my children and grandchildren so I could have given more of my self to them.

I am however trying to do some writing so that I can leave part of me for them to know some day or even now if they want to read it .

My heart has a deep deep Love for my children and grandchildren. So maybe some day I will get to share some of me with great grandchildren and more of me with just the grandchildren and my kids.

I LOVE THEM ALL VERY MUCH !!

Celebration of LIfe

This weekend was the celebration of my childrens Grandmother's life. Her llife and was one of feeling and wanting to have a family that would be strong for each other.

She taught me a lot. As I believe if others would search their hearts they too will see that she was full of knowledge and information.

We had a service at the Rosehaven Cemetary where her ashes were to be placed. Those of us that wanted to got to share our memories and hurts and feelings that were within us so others might heal and connect with all. This was her wish that all would move on and renew their realtionships with each other so that they might becaome a better family. It actually was a beautiful service and very meaningful.

I have been so inspired by the blogs that my family had written. They have been so beautiful and meaningful. I am not a writer but will try in this one and in the future to to see what I can do about being more creative with what I am writing.

WOW ! What a weekend this past on was. WE had such a great start of a healing process that was needed in my extended family. It started out a couple of weeks ago to be a possible nightmare but turned out to be a very special time for all ( I believe). I believe that we as a family can really move on with our lives and be a special family.

It was a a lot fun to see everyone and be able to share things and have time to communicate with everyone. We not shared a lot but ate a lot and acted silly and reminisced a lot. In general we were getting to know each other again. It is a lot of fun to learn things about those you love and what they love and their own families.

I pray that God will use this to build on , so that we might become a stronger family and loving and caring family.

God Bless you family all of you. Our family will be in our prayers always.

Fear of Blogging

I guess you could say this is just a little on the side of fear to try to write but I am wanting to learn how to not be in a box. I really want to try to let myself feel more and be able to write it out so others can see or know how I feel. I am sure that in time I will get better at this and be able to feel more at ease and comfortable about this.

I will pray that God might use some of this as a learning experience for me and for others.

I want to be able to pour my feelings out and Let God use me to commuicate with others. So I will pray that I will be able to lean on Him to be able to write my feelings.

I will try and pray that God will use me to his glory as He teaches me of his will.